Recess, I’m Tired

The quote for this article is from the song, ‘Recess’ by Melanie Martinez, my favourite artist. I felt that this quote was quite fitting for this article and this period in my life. A few weeks ago, I went to the Brisbane MindBodySpirit Festival. I love going every year and have done so for the past three years. This year, I got a psychic reading from a lovely lady. I asked her about my career because it had been on my mind recently. Lately, I have been feeling unmotivated to create content for my platform so I wanted some guidance on what I should do. She told me that my platform would grow and become very successful but only if I wanted it to. She said that it was okay to just be a teenage girl and to enjoy my life because my future career would always be there for me when I am ready. This advice was definitely something that I needed to hear.

Sometimes I feel like there is a lot of pressure on me to build something that will help humanity. I have never wanted to cater to a specific cause or audience; I have always felt like I needed to create something for the world itself. In my articles, I encourage people to pursue their passion and do the things they want to do. However, I also think it’s important that you understand the importance of balance and taking breaks. Of course, if you know you should be doing something and you aren’t because you are afraid of being vulnerable, then I do encourage you to do it, but if you aren’t doing something because you need a break or you feel you aren’t ready, that’s okay.

That is something that I am learning to live with right now. Life is meant to be enjoyed. We enhance our experience by doing things that we love, by choosing a career that we love. Even if you love what you do, even if you are great at what you do, don’t force yourself to hustle all the time. It’s okay to take a break.

I think sometimes when we get closer to figuring ourselves out, something changes, and we suddenly have a new challenge to overcome and a new mystery to solve. I don’t see a single straight path for me. What I mean by that is, the career I am trying to build is not exactly something you just apply for on ‘Indeed’ or ‘Seek’. It’s self-made. It’s unique. It’s vague. I want you to know that you don’t have to have everything figured out. I know my articles have changed a lot since I started publishing them. I have embedded my life more and more instead of giving straight tips or advice. I want you to also understand that this is often how it is. This is before many self-help figures build their huge platforms; this is while they build their huge self-help platforms. This is a fifteen-year-old in high school. This is a mind at 12am. This is me hoping that you receive new insights and benefit from my yapping every two weeks.

I write with my stories and my insights in hopes that you find yourself in my words. I am not perfect, and I never will be, but I share my vulnerability so that you feel brave enough to do the same. It’s okay to do things at your own pace. I am not sure what the future will hold, but as always I know that it will all work out.